Sometimes words come easily to me, and sometimes they take their sweet time, rolling around and cartwheeling across my brain before they finally jumble together into some semblance of order that will express a complete thought. If you know the events that have transpired in my life in the last 6 weeks, perhaps you will understand me when I say that I have much to say, but no idea of how to say it yet.
Two MAJOR trips back-to-back (each with their own significance and lessons that God has taught me through them) have left me undone in many ways, as I attempt to sort out the exhaustion and exhilaration and the sheer emotion of two trips that have, in many ways, changed my life and caused more introspection and soul searching than I have experienced in a long while.
During a time like this, I do a ton of writing, but nothing that I want to publish and certainly nothing anyone would care to read! My writing at the moment is very personal, as I sort through all the emotions and try to gather my thoughts until they become coherent enough to express. But I do promise to return to more regular blog writing, and I am excited to share some of the lessons God has been teaching me in the past 2 months.
In the meantime, this song is embedded in my brain, and I think expresses well the desire of my heart as I examine future steps in light of what God is teaching me.
what could I say / and what could I do /
but offer this heart, O God / completely to You